The challenge, my challenge, will be to not take this personally and to keep my strong belief that it was just a bad mix. My skills, personality, ability to jump into a very messed up situation and make progress and most importantly keep and maintain my integrity and professionalism is what matters. 

What a learning experience! I wish it had been a fun learning experience instead of one of those where I’m going, this is how I have to look at it, this is how I have to look at it.

I learned:

1. It’s nice to work at home but it’s not all that much fun when there is no one else online at the same time. 
2. my ability to learn new software, Volusion and 1shoppingCart, learn my way around company in a very short time, is on spot. No issue with that at all. Skills are still sharp!
3. If I ever work as a undocumented contractor again, well, I’m not going to. Never again. 
4. Set expectations, force communication if necessary. 
5. People who aren’t willing to receive constructive criticism or able to look, see and acknowledge their role in the issue, are not worth wasting your time over. 

 The hard part:

Admitting my mistake. In this relationship test, it would have been best if I had ask for and pushed until I had gotten answers as soon as I noticed tension. I did not set expectations, more importantly, I did not request expectations. 

1. Not letting the, “what did I do wrong? why didn’t this person like my work? don’t they see what I’ve been doing? Is it me?” loop through my head. Choosing to reject those thoughts.
2. Psyching myself back up to get out there and use this new knowledge about myself to find another job to pounce on!

Very, very, very interesting. I was extremely excited about the possibilities of working together but /shrug, that’s what happens sometimes. Just like going out on a date or two and then knowing it’s not going anywhere. 

Now I need a job. But first I have to walk the dogs and have some coffee. May I offer you a cup?

Sara - 8:25 4/26