The challenge, my challenge, will be to not take this personally and to keep my strong belief that it was just a bad mix. My skills, personality, ability to jump into a very messed up situation and make progress and most importantly keep and maintain my integrity and professionalism is what matters.
What a learning experience! I wish it had been a fun learning experience instead of one of those where I’m going, this is how I have to look at it, this is how I have to look at it.
- It’s nice to work at home but it’s not all that much fun when there is no one else online at the same time.
- my ability to learn new software, Volusion and 1shoppingCart, learn my way around company in a very short time, is on spot. No issue with that at all. Skills are still sharp!
- If I ever work as a undocumented contractor again, well, I’m not going to. Never again.
- Set expectations, force communication if necessary.
- People who aren’t willing to receive constructive criticism or able to look, see and acknowledge their role in the issue, are not worth wasting your time over.
The hard part:
Admitting my mistake. In this relationship test, it would have been best if I had ask for and pushed until I had gotten answers as soon as I noticed tension. I did not set expectations, more importantly, I did not request expectations.
- Not letting the, “what did I do wrong? why didn’t this person like my work? don’t they see what I’ve been doing? Is it me?” loop through my head. Choosing to reject those thoughts.
- Psyching myself back up to get out there and use this new knowledge about myself to find another job to pounce on!
Very, very, very interesting. I was extremely excited about the possibilities of working together but /shrug, that’s what happens sometimes. Just like going out on a date or two and then knowing it’s not going anywhere.
Now I need a job. But first I have to walk the dogs and have some coffee. May I offer you a cup?
Sara - 8:25 4/26